Friday, April 23, 2010

An Absence Explained

The much anticipated reunions are becoming increasingly stressful for both of us.  Levi is angry when he returns.  Sometimes that anger only lasts a couple of hours.  Often it goes on into the next day.  Last Sunday was one of the hardest. 
Pregnancy isn't really helping my coping abilities.  I am much more emotional now than usual.  So, when Levi screams at me that he doesn't like me and that I'm not his mommy, it burns a lot more than it probably ought to.  The patience required definitely stretches me in ways that I never expected and would love to skip.  All in all, it stinks.
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On the bright side, since Monday, Levi has been somewhere close to angelic.  He spends most of his time being sweet and funny, kind and curious.  We've had a wonderful week...a very much needed wonderful week.
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About that explanation...blogging just seemed like it would be more of a burden than a blessing this week, so it got skipped.  Hope your weekend is off to a wonderful start!   

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9 comments:

  1. Madeline,

    It can be quite rough. Especially when it's a boy and his Daddy. My Mom had the same problems with my brother and his Dad.

    I wonder if he might be well served to talk with someone about things? I know he is so young but maybe a therapist could help him? Just a thought.

    Hugs to you, Mama!

    Nell

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  2. I'm keeping you in my prayers.

    Love, Gloria

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  3. Thinking of you guys. So glad you had a good week.
    And this: "blogging just seemed like it would be more of a burden than a blessing this week, so it got skipped. "
    I wish more people would go with this when the feeling comes :)

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  4. I am so sorry that you and Levi have to go through that. It hurts my heart for you. I'll be praying for you.

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  5. I'm so sorry. I think that would be heart wrenching for any mom pregnant or not.

    Love and hugs to you.

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  6. I am so sorry his returns have been stressful.

    I love that you are honest about your emotions and I'm sure you are helping not only yourself but all of us when you share.

    We remember how real life is, and how it's not always perfect.

    It seems to me Levi has had a lot of changes recently. These might be good changes but they are still changes for him.
    Don't be hard on yourself because I am sure you are doing everything right.

    Patience and coping is something I struggle with also.

    I hope all of you have a beautiful weekend. You deserve it for all you do.

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  7. I hope you're well on your way to a second gorgeous week - it's not like there isn't enough of a rollercoaster growing a smaller person! Hang in there Mama.

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  8. I'm so sorry. Poor little guy and poor mama! Hopefully things will get easier with that situation sooner rather than later.

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